Step 4: Know that its ok that you are who you are, where you are

Oper­a­tion Have-a-Festive-Holiday is going pretty well.

Joy splattered tree

Cre­ative Com­mons License photo credit: Lau­ren Manning

I’ve nearly com­pleted my Christ­mas let­ter which has turned into 6 pages that I ‘m not plan­ning to send to anyone.

I had a hard time as I started my Christ­mas let­ter. I was reminded that I didn’t accom­plish any of my big goals, and that my sweet­est lit­tle buddy, Milosz, died this year.

I was pretty sad about my past year until two things happened:

  1. I cried and cried about Milosz and then I asked myself what I needed. I decided that I needed to imag­ine him being with me and I needed to honor him. I imag­ined hold­ing him and hear­ing his purr and his sweet lit­tle face look­ing at mine. And I wrote three pages about him in my Christ­mas let­ter. My lit­tle love, Milosz.
  2. Cre­ative Com­mons License photo credit: Gdpaule

  3. In the past month I’ve run into a lot of advice about accept­ing myself as I am right now. And this past cou­ple of days, I’ve come across even more which I needed as a reminder. I think that I often have an under­cur­rent of self-criticism going on that I’m not even aware of.  Fac­ing the end of this year and com­par­ing where I think I should be with where I am brought it out in the open in a flood of self-recrimination and regret.

It has been amaz­ing to hap­pen upon so much advice about accept­ing and lov­ing myself all at the same time. I take it as a sign.

Series Nav­i­ga­tionStep Three: Face Real­ityStep 5: Ask Your Inner Wisdom
This entry is part 5 of 11 in the series The 2010 Authen­tic Threads Hol­i­day Challenge

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