AH ha! I love having realizations. They make me happy.
I’ve been thinking about work and I just realized that the reason I am so scared of going back to work and dread it so, is because my work/fun balance was off. It’s just like *dieting – the binge following the diet is proportionate to the amount of deprivation.
Yay! So simple, so clear. The answer for me: more fun, LOTS more. And less work when I do start working again. Maybe I’ll just have to work part time and live a modest life style, with lots of surfing! :)
As I recover from my work diet/fun deprivation, I’ll probably be able to work more without feeling horrible. I might even like it. (That’s hard to believe, but you never know.)
*I attribute much of this realization to a wooonnnderful book about the perils and futility of dieting called The Overfed Head. In it, Rob Stevens explains that bingeing is very normal following a diet and that there have been studies done that show that a very successful way to get underweight people to gain weight is to put them on a diet.
What he uses as a measure/limit/guide to eating are his own feelings of hunger. Hmmmm… Maybe I could use my expenses as a parallel for how much to work. I want to live within my means which is pretty similar to eating within my amount of hunger. Actually, its the exact opposite, but its related, just switched around.**
**I don’t expect that last sentence to make sense to anyone else.
YAY realizations!
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