RAndom stuff I wrote while I was in Portland (Part 3)
I am traveling from the East Coast to the West Coast. In the meanwhile. I will leave you with some random writing I did three months ago while I was in Portland.
Watching TLC at my aunt’s house…
I have learned one valuable thing from my incessant TV watching: I think I need to improve my dressing. I’ve been watching What not To Wear. I used to think they were rude, but now I love Clayton and Stacey! (I still think it’s a little rude.)
Also, it’s against my value system to spend a lot of money on clothes. I buy ALL my clothes at the thrift store. YES! It’s true! So, I am going to buy myself some nice clothes. Since I hate to shop, I’m going to buy my stuff on myshape.com. Hopefully I measured myself correctly. Watching the show and seeing that people who feel like me about clothes often have underlying insecurities made me think that maybe updating my look to a professional woman in her mid-thirties would be a good thing to do. (I have loads of underlying insecurities.) Who am I now? What do I want to project to the world? I am not going as far as wearing high heeled pointy toed shoes though. Oh, NO.
I’m the same way about spending lots on clothes. I’d rather go without than have the guilt of buying something I can’t justify thoroughly. Part of it is that it frees me up to spend money on things I think are more important - or save it for a rainy day or future home. Or to feel more free to buy something I really like later.
Occasionally I worry that it may derive from a latent feeling of not deserving to buy something full-price. But not often. It seems to me that a regular shopping habit just clutters the closet with things you don’t love and seldom wear. I’d rather wait till I find something that’s really me, that I feel great in.
Thanks for the website tip - I signed up, but I think my roommate’s the one who will really like it….Oh, and I’m with you on the pointy shoes.
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